Nothing good comes from sharing your thoughts through an online diary-thing. Nobody wants to hear you bitch, unless you're female and hot - in which I'm neither. Olol. I will continue my journaling-ways privately, in a book somewhere or something... not online. I won't make this giant mistake ever again.

This marks the end of Chronic_Relapse, and Nen alike.

Tags: zee end
Current Mood: pensive

... I got a feeling that it's gonna be wonderful day. The sun in the sky has a smile on his face, and it's shining a salute to the American race!"

I've had that damn American Dad theme song in my head for the last two hours. Gah!!1

That's it.

(Interestingly, shortly after writing this I now have that Indiana Jones theme in my head.. WTF IS THIS!?)

Tags: theme songs
Current Mood: F U

Yes, the preceding entry is somewhat lacking elaboration, but that's because I've noticed talking about certain things I've "realized" diminishes its bearing, usefulness, or validity... whatever... to near nothing. So, in that mindset, if I want to continue on with this sense of understanding, I shouldn't assume it to be right and openly discuss it like a fuckface.

I just remembered there's cheesecake in the fridge; it's been there this entire day, and I've not touched it. I have to redeem such a sin and plow my face into it immediately.

Tags: cheesecake, lol, realizations
Current Mood: Horny for cheesecake

I've just come to the very best realization of my entire life.

That is all.

Yes.. the tropical storm from HELL. It's doing just as much damage as hurricane Charlie just from the fucking flooding, and the extremely massive tornado that formed and passed through the northern part of my county and almost directly through Jacksonville.

Oh joy.

The constant downpours are bringing somewhat of an ominous feeling. Luckily, we're on pretty high ground compared to neighboring counties, so we're not being subjected to the ghey flooding. I just hate the thought of tornadoes, especially the one earlier today which was fucking huge for a Florida tornado.

Maybe the predicted path for this storm will be right for once, and it won't go into the gulf and become a massive fuckster and kill the world.

Tags: fay, flood, tornadoes
Current Mood: Plaguefaced

Florida sucks. At least it's not a hurricane, but we're gonna get the long end of it.

p.s. I quit WoW until I can play retail again. That server is shit. The end.

OKAY. It's astounding that this year is nearing completion (only 4 more months!?), I swear it feels like it just started. I remember the beginning of the year I vowed to get a job, stop bitching about stuff, and learn Spanish. I've failed at all of them, except the latter. Ci, I habla spaniard stuff. I know. I'm good. #smug

In retrospect, this year hasn't been a complete waste thus far; I no longer fear people (Now I'm just overly conscious of my appearance; namely my now long hair, untrimmed and weird looking), that's always nice? Oh, and I've accepted the possibility God exists (and not just when I want to blame him for shit), but refuse to blindly believe it wholeheartedly without evidence. Finally, I'm still trying not to obsess over everything... I'm making some progress.

People don't want to hear your problems, they don't want to hear your bitching. FFS, I can't stand people bitching to me about their life when it becomes excessive and redundant, and yet I do it almost exclusively to others; in fact, I can vividly recall, on several occasions, telling people to shut the fuck up about their melodramatic bullshit. I sort of inadvertently made a bit of a hypocrite out of myself. I blame the media.

Come the new year, I sense something will be greatly different about myself. I can just feel it. Nothing particular, nothing necessarily specific.. just.. different. It could be as mundane as my face, or as extraordinary as my skin color. WHO KNOWS. I just know, it's there, waiting for me. The events that transpire from here to there will be the door to this change, I just have to walk through it. 2009 will be my year; the rest of this year will prepare me for that.

In other news, the news-of-the-now, I'm still in the programming scene. I've still yet to learn the win32 API, because it's fucking terrifying. I swear, learning that will make me somewhat less than human. Recently I picked up Lua in combination with XML to make WoW addons. Lua is very similar to C with a slightly different syntax, XML, for the way the WoW API uses it, is simple. I have a few projects pending, but I suspect after I finish up with all of this I shall be taking on the challenge of the win32 API. Ugh...

Hal has been taking advantage of this, too. He's gained a 4 level lead on me again, but he knows all too well my superiority in leveling. I will have my vengeance.

Tags: life, programming, wow
Current Mood: curious

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Tags: chronic relapse
Current Mood: lethargic